6 Weeks

I can't believe I am finally getting to do these updates!  I have literally waited YEARS for this.  I always knew I'd go with the chalkboard updates like Jessica at Little Baby Garvin I mean she was the inspiration behind me starting a blog in the first place! 

On Monday we went for our first ultrasound, I was so nervous but I tried to keep my calm, I didn't want Joe to think that I had any worry & I really didn't, but you don't even know if you've got an actual pregnancy in there until you SEE it.  We drove down to Peoria and got to see our perfect little bean for the first time & it was amazing.  We got to listen & see the heartbeat which was so amazing.  A lot of people were convinced it was twins because of my high betas (967, 3215, & 40,000), but I knew there would only be one strong little babe in there.  So far we are measuring right on track & the heart rate was 116bpm so lots of people are saying boy!!  Cannot wait to find out!

How Far Along?  6 weeks

Total Weight Gain/Loss?  Not sure

Maternity Clothes?  None yet!

Stretch Marks?  None

Sleep:  I was sleeping really well, napping a lot during the 2ww & the first week, now I’m starting to have extremely vivid dreams and more unpredictable and interrupted sleep these last few days.

Best Moment this Week:  Seeing our baby for the first time!  We went for our first ultrasound on Monday at 6w2d and we were able to see ONE perfect baby measuring right on track with a heart rate of 116bpm.  My RE said I can come back as often as I want but since I have to drive about 1.5 hours to his office we are planning once a week for now.

Have you told your friends?  Yes!  We know it is VERY early, but since we have been so open about this process, we knew that we would share our news pretty early on. 

Miss Anything?  With the local carnival going on I really missed beer & hot dogs this past week

Movement?  Nothing yet.

Food Cravings:  I’m hungry ALL THE TIME, but I have a hard time finding things that sound good.  I’m trying to eat well, but I’m also kind of just eating what I want & trying to satisfy the constant hunger.

Anything make you queasy or sick?  I haven’t had any morning sickness yet.  I have been sort of turned off by the thought of certain food, but haven’t felt queasy or thrown up at all yet.

Have you started to show?   Just my carnival food belly that is still hanging on from the weekend.

Gender prediction:  Boy.  Joe is 100% convinced it is a boy.  He said he’s never even imagined having a girl before, he said  he will be happy either way, but I’m afraid if it’s a girl he might push me down the stairs ;-)

Labor Signs:  Definitely not.

Belly Button in or out?  In as usual.

Wedding rings on or off?  On

Happy or moody most of the time:  Extremely moody right now.  I’m so tired and just feel blah overall. 

Looking forward to:  Next week’s ultrasound appointment on Tuesday!

I'M PREGNANT!!!

Well, it’s official, I AM PREGNANT!!   Our first beta was yesterday which came in on the very high side at 967!  Lots of people are suggesting a possible embryo split resulting in twins, but I am still hoping for a singleton.  No matter how many babies are in there, it’s a true blessing.  

I was pretty confident it was going to be negative.  The first few days I was feeling really optimistic, thinking, this has to be it, but the last few days I was very crabby and just felt like AF was on her way.  I had cramping from 3dpt pretty heavy through about 8dpt.  After that they started to subside quite a bit but these were like cramps I had never felt before.  They were very intense, not like what I normally experience during my period so I was hopeful it was a good sign of implantation.  I had no spotting at all.  I have had sore boobs this entire time, but that started several days before transfer when we started progesterone injections.  That PIO is the devil as it mimics pregnancy symptoms pretty well.  

I went to the hospital at 6am Monday for my blood draw then headed straight to work to wait for the dreaded call.  I emailed my IVF nurse to tell her that I had my test done & that she would only get my HCG level same day as our local lab cannot process progesterone & estrogen same day.  She said she’d be on the lookout for the results, about 3 hours later at 10am I got the email that changed my life, one like I’ve never received before:

“Congratulations!  It’s good and positive!  Your hcg is 967.  We would like you to repeat it again on Thursday to make sure your levels go up.” 

I seriously had to read it 3 or 4 times before I comprehended what she was saying.  I couldn’t believe the beta was so high!  I immediately called Joe although I knew that he wouldn’t answer being that he works out in the field so I sent him a text with the number & to tell him we were definitely pregnant.  I also sent a message to some of my closest friends & moms, TTC sisters, etc. and I was immediately flooded with phone calls.  Everyone was shocked & so happy.  I ended up taking a half day vacation and left at 10:30 and went over to my friend Jessica’s house.  We went to lunch and to Target, she bought me 2 outfits, one for a boy & one for a girl, and I bought pregnancy tests of course!  We headed over to another friend of ours to hang out for a few hours so that we could all bask in me finally being pregnant! 

I went home and immediately took the pregnancy test.  It’s been close to 3 years since I’ve seen a positive on a pregnancy test and I’ve never seen one on a digital before so it was a true sight to see.  It flashed “pregnant” and then “2-3” and I couldn’t believe it!  I immediately rummaged through my box of baby stuff I have collected to find my “Worth the Wait” onesie from Urban Baby Co and set it out on the counter for Joe to see when he got home.  He didn’t end up getting my message until about 4 hours after I sent it because where they were working had such poor cell service.  He was very excited.  He brought home and orchid (my favorite flower & our wedding flower) and some Reese’s peanut butter cups, so thoughtful of him.  Later on some friends came over with a cigar & a book about whiskey for Joe.  

We decided that we would tell our other family members (like Joe’s other siblings, my aunts, etc. that we are close with) via text since everyone knew we were going through this.  We didn’t really feel like telling people in person was necessary.  If this would’ve been a natural conception it would be a totally different ball game, but I was getting messages all day on Instagram and Facebook of people asking what was going on so we decided to spill the beans right away, especially with our strong beta.  We know that so many things can happen and that we aren’t out of the woods yet, but this is the farthest we’ve ever come by a long shot & we really felt it was a great reason to celebrate.  

We are so so thankful and grateful to everyone for their continued support.  The outpouring of love that we have been receiving with our announcement has just been so overwhelmingly amazing.   We are blessed with the MOST AMAZING support group and I wish I could thank everyone personally who has stuck by us for these 5 long years.  This has been an exhausting journey but we were so determined and never felt like we needed to give up.  We are also beyond grateful for our donor who without her, this would not even be happening right now.  We owe her everything!  We are so excited to embark on this new journey!

Our trip to Georgia & Embryo Transfer!

Well, we did it!  We transferred our first donor egg embryo on Thursday & it is absolutely perfect!  I should back up and start with Wednesday the day we left because it was a doozy.  The entire trip was actually pretty rough for me, but we accomplished what we went down to do and that is all that matters!

Wednesday morning our flight left from Chicago at 6am so we wanted to be on the road by 2.  We got up around 1:30 and made the 1.5 hour drive to Midway.  It poured rain and stormed the entire way there, but luckily at that hour there isn't much traffic to worry about.  We got to the airport, parked, got on the shuttle, and got quickly in line to check our bags.  Joe and I were talking about how our licenses had very outdated addresses on them and that we probably needed to update them.  I noticed shortly after that conversation that mine was actually expired!  As of my 30th birthday just a week prior, and I had no idea.  Luckily we made it through airport security without anyone noticing.  

We got on the plane and the flight was really quick, about 1.5 hours.  I had a second cup of bold Starbucks coffee on the plane which I knew was probably a bad idea but I needed some energy if I was going to make it through the day.  We picked up our rental car and drove the 2.5 hours to Augusta from Atlanta.  The whole car ride I felt terrible.  My stomach was really distended and I was just feeling horrible.  I was in tears by the end of it & we really were hoping we would be able to check into our hotel early.  We arrived by noon and check in wasn't until 3, but the lady at the desk could visibly see that I was a wreck.  She worked on getting us a room and Joe and I went to Target so that I could get some meds.  I wanted activated charcoal but they didn't have it so I tried Gas-X hoping that would relieve my bloat.  We sat in the car for around 30 minutes and there was no relief.

We headed to Urgent Care where I continued to get progressively worse.  I had never had such bad pain in my stomach before, I could hardly walk, and my left side was just in excruciating pain.  The doc at the Urgent Care wasn't able to do much but prescribe me an antacid for a possible ulcer (being on 81mg aspirin for this IVF cycle he thought that was the culprit) which I started taking right away. We got back to the hotel around 2 and they had a room ready & we went to lay down and nap.  I woke up feeling worse and was doubled over in pain so we went to the ER.  I was so afraid that my transfer was going to be cancelled and we just really wanted to make sure that it wasn't something serious like a burst appendix.  

We waited in the ER waiting room for 3 hours before they took me back.  Joe was so upset because of the wait and how much pain I was in.  Luckily once we got back to a room they started working on me right away.  They had already done blood work which all came back fine except for low white blood cell count.  They took me back instantly for a CT scan which ended up showing that I had severe inflammation and constipation.  I had gone to the bathroom earlier in the day so I wasn't really sure why it was so bad, but it was terrible.  They wanted to give me magnesium to relieve it but they also wanted to do a vaginal ultrasound to make sure my ovaries were ok seeing as how we were supposed to have our transfer the next day, they were very sympathetic to that part of our situation which I really appreciated.

They ended up putting me on IV fluids & gave me morphine for the pain.  I had the ultrasound which came back fine & then within literally seconds of taking just sips of the 10oz of magnesium, I felt better.  We were in the ER a total of 8 hours and had been up for 24 hours by the time we were released.  I felt so much better though and I was cleared for transfer!


Thursday morning was our transfer at 10am.  We checked in and were greeted by the embryologist who told us that we had 5 "perfect" embryos.  We decided to transfer our best quality embryo and freeze the other 4.  The transfer went fine, and by the end we were told we might even have 5 frozen!  We were both very happy with the results of this cycle & I don't think I've ever had an embryo transferred as perfect as the one pictured above.  This is a 4AA top graded 5-day blastocyst and I think our chances of this little guy implanting are pretty darn good!


After the transfer we went back to the room and watched movies and took long naps, that evening we met up with Amy and her husband and their son Max for dinner at House of Beer.  Obviously I couldn't partake in any beer drinking, but we had a yummy dinner and it was great to see them again.  We were supposed to get together Wednesday but since we spent our entire night in the ER we had to cancel.  Friday we spent the day resting and then a kid-free dinner with Amy and her husband.  We ended up going to Rae's Costal Café and then headed downtown to the Boll Weevil for after dinner drinks and amazing desserts.  They had tons of cakes and pies to choose from.  I ended up with a huge piece of lemon cake with a raspberry sauce, it was soo good! 


We had to be up at 4am to make it to Atlanta for our flight home so we called it a night & said our goodbyes to Amy and Allen.  Our trip home went smooth and we were back by 1:30 on Saturday so we were able to rest and relax the rest of the afternoon.  I was so happy that we didn't have any hiccups on the way back.  Although I was sick most of the trip (fought a terrible headache on Friday too) the day that was supposed to go well, went perfect and now we wait for our test to hopefully come back positive!  Thank you all for your continued love and support, fingers & toes crossed for some good news soon!