Monday, January 28, 2019

Current Toddler Favorites

As requested I'm giving you a round up our current toddler favorites in the Ridley household.  We are not huge fans of tons of toys, but we do keep a small rotation out in our living space for Georgia to play with.  Toddlers attention spans are pretty short so I like to keep a variety of different things out for her.  I've linked everything for you, either the version we use or something similar. 

The biggest item and probably the most played with is her play kitchen.  She was gifted this by my SIL before she was even born and began playing with it very early on, she would use it to practice her standing and cruising.  We moved it upstairs and it is easily her favorite.  She loves to open and close the doors, and loves to use the utensils and flatware to set our dining room table.  She also loves this Peppa Pig tea set.

We also recently got her this Minnie Mouse Vanity and she loves it so much!  She loves to sit at the little stool & play with her play faux make-up from Little Lily Love on Etsy!

These flashcards are something that I bought her for Christmas, they were just a couple bucks and we've had pretty good success with them so far.  Some days it's more of a 52 pick up than it is learning words, but for the most part I can get her to play along my way for 5-10 words before she is on to something else.

Our current favorite cup is this mini hydroflask.  If you've followed me for awhile you know my disdain for cups.  There are not many that truly don't leak and we have tried many brands.  The hydroflask does a pretty good job, but what I like best is it keeps her drink cold for the longest amount of time.  We also like Twistshake baby sippy cups (use code LENARIDLEY20 at checkout for 20% off) and Camelback but you do have to bite the straw on these to get the liquid so it took us a little while to get this one figured out.

We bought Georgia the cheapest Amazon Fire tablet with this cute foam case and it's been a hit for her.  It is pretty slow I will admit, but I got it for $30 on Black Friday so I didn't have super high expectations for it anyway.  We do have an original iPad mini but since it is so old it doesn't take updates anymore and also runs pretty slow.  I was torn but didn't feel like spending several hundreds of dollars on an iPad for a toddler so this works perfect for our needs.

Georgia's new favorite thing to do is "wash" she loves to wash her hands in the sink and play in the water.  However it's kind of obnoxious to constantly do over and over.  For her birthday we got her this Wash-up kitchen sink.  The sink pumps real water and it comes with a bunch of dishes to wash.  I'm certain this will become one of her new favorites.

I've shared these a few times on my Instagram, but these Crayola Color Bath Dropz have been a huge hit!  I've had to limit her to 2 of them per bath because she is obsessed.  They come with blue, yellow, and pink but you can mix the colors to make purple, green, and orange as well.  They're completely non-toxic as well which is important I think for most of us.  This container has 60 fragrance free tablets.  Also these do not leave stains!

The toy Dyson was also a big hit with Georgia as she loves to vacuum and loves anything with buttons.  I had trouble getting this at first around Christmas because it was sold out everywhere but eventually came back in to stock just in time.  Best thing about it is it has real suction so your kid will literally be helping you clean while they play.  It's freaking genius!

These are some of our current favorites but I'd love to hear what you all are loving in your homes now too.  As we know toddlers lose interest so fast and we are always open for new and fun ideas!  

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Tuesday, January 15, 2019

Donor Egg IVF proccess

This is a post I have been meaning to write for a long time & I've had a couple of questions about the process and a couple requests to do a blog post for it so I am finally getting around to sharing what the process is for using a known egg donor.  I'm going to preface this by saying this...every clinic is different and every clinic will have a different process, however, for the most part the physical aspect to the donor egg process is the same.  There are several different donor programs including using a known donor, an anonymous donor, choosing your own, having your clinic do the choosing, and using a frozen egg bank. 

If you're new here to these parts you may not know the background of our story which is that after several years of infertility treatments (6 cycles of IVF with my eggs/9 total embryos transferred & ZERO pregnancies) we decided to go the donor egg route.  Although no testing has ever been able to provide us with a clear diagnosis because everything has come back normal or negative, having a successful pregnancy via donor eggs gives us a clear indication that my egg quality is the culprit to our years of failed cycles.  Choosing the donor egg route was something I was absolutely against in the early days of treatment.  After 3 failed cycles (1 fresh/2 frozen) with our first clinic we switched clinics and had a terrible cycle, it was after that failed cycle that doctor mentioned that my eggs "appeared" to be poor and I should consider donor eggs.  It took me 1 more clinic, 1 more fresh, and one more frozen cycle before I realized he was right and we began the donor egg process.  In hindsight, donor eggs was the best decision we made on our journey to become parents. 

I will start with the beginning of our DE journey right after we decided we waned to use an egg donor.  Before Amy our donor reached out to me I was in the process of looking through profiles of donors through our local clinic.  It was kind of like a dating site, there were pages of photos that you could click on to view more info about each donor such as height, weight, hair color, eye color, ethnicity, schooling, family history, etc. and this is the process for several clinics.  Shortly after I began my search our donor came into our lives.  We had been friends on social media and she had felt a calling to help us.  She messaged me with an offer to be our surrogate.  Ultimately we were not ready for that step and she wound up donating her eggs to us instead.  Amy had all the qualities that I was looking for in a donor; she was only 26 at the time she donated, she had 2 children of her own already, she was a nurse which I thought was amazing, and her husband was supportive of her choice to help us.  On top of that she happened to look somewhat like me which was totally a bonus for us.  Her an I connected very easily which was also really important to me.

During the process of searching for a donor a lot of people want someone who is "proven" meaning that they have donated & a pregnancy has resulted from their eggs, however, all donors are "unproven" at some time and that is just a personal preference as are many of the qualities that a person can look for in their donor.  Someone might want someone very well educated vs. a person who looks like them while another might not care much about education and wants to focus more on looks.  These are all very personal considerations when choosing a donor.  Some clinics will "match" donors and recipients based on the wants of the intended parents.  The other option is looking at frozen eggs which are significantly cheaper since they've already been retrieved you don't have to pay for the stimming & retrieval portion of the process.  Some clinics offer frozen eggs of their own, or you can use a place like Egg Bank to find frozen donor eggs. 

For our DE cycle I knew that it made most sense for us to travel to Georgia from Illinois so that our donor didn't have to be away from her work and her family for an extended period while she went through stims.  We  didn't have any children so it just seemed easier for us to travel to them so I found a clinic in Augusta Georgia called Servy Massey Fertility Institute.  When we went to Georgia for the first time to meet Amy and her family we also met our doctor for the first time and had a consultation & exam with him along with bloodwork.  We needed to get as much done there as we possibly could so Joe also gave his semen sample at that time which they froze until we were ready to begin our cycle. 

Between March and end of May when Amy started her stims we got all of the legal part handled.  In many clinics and donor programs the legal part (including fees) is included in the process, for us, using a known donor outside of our clinics donor program, we were required to find our own attorney and have our own contract made up to provide to the clinic.  I used Sara Clay from Marietta Georgia who happened to be a lawyer who specialized in Reproductive Law.  I basically just Googled "reproductive law" and found her and everything was done via email.  It cost $750 and she wrote up the contract, we signed everything as did Amy and her husband and Amy provided her family and medical history as part of the contract.  The contract is in place to protect both the donor and the recipients, basically stating that I cannot drop Georgia off at Amy's door and run and say she's her responsibility and Amy cannot claim that Georgia is hers and take her away.  It's nothing that either of us would ever do but it is 100% necessary to protect both the donor and the recipient. 

Once all the paperwork was signed & Amy completed & passed all of the necessary blood work we were given the green light to start our cycle.  Amy did 100 units of Gonal F and 75 units of Menopur for about 11 days, stims are typically 10 days but they added on one extra day for her which is also very common.  She was monitored on day 6 and again on day 8.  During monitoring they will count follicles and take blood.  She also incorporated Ganirelix (ovulation prevention) for a few days before retrieval.  Our doctor was very conservative with her meds which I also liked.  We were shooting for quality over quantity so it was important that her meds were kept low so she wasn't overstimulated. 

On the day of retrieval you are put under anesthesia, the process takes about 20-30 minutes and they do ultrasound guided aspiration using a long needle that punctures your ovary and basically sucks the eggs out.  Amy had 10 eggs retrieved.  Once they're retrieved the embryologists go to work, they either use a process called ICSI where they select a single sperm and inject it into the egg or they let the sperm and egg fertilize on their own, sometimes both of these processes will be used, it's really up to your doctor to determine what is best for each case.  Once the retrieval is done, the donor is finished with their part of the process.  The next day you receive your fertilization report.  Out of Amy's 10 eggs retrieved, 8 of them had fertilized which is really good.  The two that didn't get discarded and the 8 that do are left to continue growing in the lab.  On day 3 we got our embryo update, (not all clinics will do this) which was really good.  Out of the 8 that fertilized, we had 6 that were thriving.

While the donor is stimming, the recipient is also taking meds to prep for the incoming embryo.  Estrogen starts typically the same day as your period starts, my doctor also had me start baby aspirin at this time.  Progesterone injections and suppositories also start about 10 days after the recipients period.  These are the only meds typically required for a recipient, similar to prepping for an FET there are no stims, ovulation prevention, or triggers necessary when you are the recipient.  

5 days after the embryo has been fertilized it's time for transfer just like a normal cycle of IVF.  The embryologist will typically pick the top graded embryo or embryos depending on how many are chosen to be transferred.  Not all clinics will grade embryos and embryo grading does not at all indicate that a cycle will be successful.  Poorly graded embryos certainly can still result in a full-term pregnancy and top graded embryos can also fail.  Our embryologist told us we had a 4AA (top grade) embryo and 5 more that were heading to the freezer for future babies.  Once we spoke to the embryologist we were sent back to prepare for the transfer.  Most clinics will make you change into a gown of some type plus a hair net and socks & hubby's will sometimes be provided with scrubs and booties to wear.  The transfer is usually pretty quick and consists of lying on a table with your feet in stirrups, just like you would for a PAP.  A speculum is inserted followed by a catheter which contains the embryo.  Your bladder is usually supposed to be full so that they have a clear view of the area via ultrasound and you can usually see a tiny little dot appear on the screen.  Once the transfer is complete then you typically are required to lay down anywhere from 10-60 minutes depending on the clinic.

This is of course, just the process that I am familiar with for known donors.  There are many programs out there and a lot of the details can vary.  Donors are allowed to donate up to 6 times, sometimes they do back to back cycles which can cause a delay for the recipient.  Another option that many clinics offer is a shared risk program where you split the cost with another recipient to help offset the cost.  The eggs retrieved are also split so each couple gets an equal share of eggs.  There are pros and cons to all of these programs, the biggest being that insurance covers NONE of the donors part so retrieval and meds are 100% out of your own pocket.  Meds typically cost about $3-4,000 and the retrieval is usually between $15-20k.  For us we were blessed with all of our meds being donated from others in the community along with a few from my local clinic who took care of monitoring me for the cycle since I couldn't be in Georgia for my baseline & monitoring appointments.  However we did pay $13k out of pocket for the rest of the cycle along with the $750 legal fees plus travel to Georgia.  Just like most infertility treatment, it's very expensive.

So that is really the technical part of donor eggs.  The bigger part of donor eggs is the emotional part.  There is a TON to consider and there are some scary things to think about, but ultimately your heart and your intuition will guide you (as it did for me) to determine if it's right for you.  We have always been very open about our journey and that did not stop with egg donation, were were open and honest about it from the beginning and we have been lucky that we have had nothing but amazing support from friends and family.  If someone was unsupportive I would do all I could to educate then about how families are built today, but I would never let an unsupportive person stop me from obtaining my dreams.  As long as my partner and I were in agreement then no one else's opinion would take any toll on my decision.  

As far as a donor child's life, it's VERY important to talk to them about it early on in their lives.  There is absolutely nothing from a donor conceived child to be ashamed of about their lives and hiding anything from them is unfair to them.  They deserve to know where they came from,  how they came about, and most importantly HOW MUCH THEY ARE LOVED AND WANTED.  Without the desire a donor recipient has for a child, there would be no child, so make it known to them that they are so loved and so wanted.  I want Georgia to be proud of her roots, I want her to know where she came from and the amazing sacrifice that was made for her by someone who literally owed us nothing.  Even if she came from an anonymous donor, we would still share her story with her regularly and make it part of who she is.  Here is an amazing book I recommend about having the necessary conversations with your donor conceived child. 

I hope that this can give some of you some clarification on the donor egg process.  There can definitely be some challenges and some logistics to figure in depending on your situation.  If you're unsure of the path to take my best advice is to reach out in our community on Instagram or find a donor baby facebook group (there are several) where you can ask specific questions to people who have a variety of different experiences with egg, sperm, and embryo donation.

My friends over at FertilityIQ are working hard to provide this community with helpful information to equip you during your infertility journey, here are some links I found to be helpful PGS testingEmbryo Transfer GuideA Comprehensive Guide to Egg FreezingComponents of a Reliable LabA Dive into ICSIMale Factor InfertilityIVF

Wednesday, January 09, 2019

Transitioning to a Toddler Bed

Prefacing this by saying this is 100% MY experience, it was not pleasant or easy by any means, but it was what was best for us, it may not be best for you & you may not agree with it, and that is OK.

Most of you know that we co-slept and bed shared with Georgia since the day she came home.  Her first days of life were spent sleeping on my chest because she would SCREAM inside the Halo bassinet that I thought we'd have her in at first.  Within 2 days of being home we ordered a Dockatot because I was so fearful of her sleeping on me, especially after all the csection drugs that were in me, my body was acting very strange and jittery and I was not comfortable with her sleeping on me, but it was the only way we slept until our beloved Dockatot arrived. 

We did the DAT for a few months then finally got her in the bassinet for awhile, then when she outgrew that she was in our bed full time bedsharing which we loved.  I rocked her to sleep in the living room every night and put her down between us at the top of our king size bed every single night and we LOVED having her with us.  I was nursing so it was the easiest for the both of us and Joe enjoyed having her close too.  We would separate our pillows and give her enough space between us where she would be safe and comfortable. 

Once I stopped nursing at 1 year we let her continue to sleep in our bed for a few months but I really wanted her transitioned into her own room because we were going to be heading into a transfer for baby number 2 and I wanted her 100% transitioned into her own space before a second child arrived.  I continued to rock her to sleep and would put her down in her crib every night and it worked out OK, but she would only sleep about 4-5 hours before waking and calling for me and would wind up in our bed every night.  We figured that she was just used to a bigger, comfier bed & who could blame her.  Our bed is amazing, its king size, we use flannel sheets, its just super comfortable and I think she was just so used to our bed that her crib just wasn't up to her standards. 

We decided that for Christmas we would get her a big girl bed.  It was actually a gift from my parents to Georgia.  Our plan is for Joe to build her a Montessori style frame around it, it will sit a little off the floor but won't be nearly as high as a regular bed but also won't be directly on the floor like it is right now either.  We got the full size mattress in November & decided on a random Sunday in early December that it was time to open it up and start the transition.

This was literally our first mistake.  Our very first step in this process WAS A MISTAKE, and here is why.  We started this on a Sunday, a Sunday that she was still sick (she had been the entire week prior) where her sleep had been whacky and off all week, she was taking longer and extra naps, she was sleeping like crap at night because she was so congested, she was also  about to start going through some sort of regression because she was slowly starting to boycott bed all together and pushed her 6:30-7pm bedtime back to 9-9:30 or later some nights.  IT WAS A SHIT SHOW in our house for 3 weeks with this new bedtime routine.  Joe and I were exhausted, luckily we made a great team and tired to balance attempts at putting her down.  He is game for staying up later so I would try at first then if it was getting late he'd take her for a bit and play with her or watch a movie, then I'd try to get some sleep and tag him out and go back in with her.  It was a complete disaster all because our timing absolutely sucked.

this was her earlier in the week 

What I will say about it all though is that the actual bed, was a great move for her.  She sleeps great it in, she maybe wakes up once calling for me or crying, she still comes into our room every so often, but overall she sleeps great in it.  It was the going down to sleep for us that we struggled with because she thought the bed was literally like a bounce house in her room, a place to play not a place to sleep, but now about a month into it she is really understanding that her bed is for night night and this where she sleeps.  I am able to lay her down with her blankie and her "waddi" as she refers to her cup of water at bed time and lay next to her and she will actually lay there and not play and go to sleep, some nights it takes 15 minutes some it takes 30, but she is getting the hang of it and we are so thankful to be back to our regularly scheduled programming of an early bed time for her which is about 7pm.

A lot of people asked why we couldn't push her bed time back or cut out her nap all together to get her down earlier but here is a look at our day & why neither of those things would really work for us:

5am -- my alarm goes off & I'm in the shower
5:30 -- Joe is getting up and so is Georgia, so she is up bright & early every week day - Joe gets her dressed (I lay her outfit out the night before) which is a huge help for me.
6am -- we are out the door and headed to daycare by 6-6:10am
7am -- I have to be at work
11-12pm -- Georgia typically gets a nap somewhere in this ballpark range depending on her day and how it's going.
3:45pm -- I am picking her up from daycare
4pm -- we get home and I let her watch TV for a bit while I get the animals cared for, mail opened, dinner started or at least figured out
5 -- I'm usually cooking dinner at this time, Georgia is playing, TV is still helping me babysit while I take care of laundry, getting her stuff ready for the next day
6-6:30 -- I give her a bath, get her in jammies, and we head into the living room where we turn off all the lights and watch a little more TV or read and have quiet time.  We try not to let her get too riled up at this time
7pm - I'm usually heading with her into her room around 7 or a little after & she's typically been going down at 7:30 or 8 but we are slowly working back to a little earlier bed time.

This is why she cannot go without a nap yet, she is up too early and I can't expect her to make it the whole day without one.  I'd have to put her down around 5-5:30pm and that just isn't feasible in our lives.  It's also impossible for her to sleep in much later because we literally have to be out the door by 6am.  On the weekends she'll sleep til about 7-7:30 if I'm lucky, and I'm happy to get a couple more hours out of her on the weekends.

Overall the transition process was tough but it was because our timing literally sucked.  We did such a poor job of timing it with her being sick. I failed as a mother because I was sooooooo angry with her, with myself for choosing to do this at this time but the crib was already down and put away, I was going to bed angry and frustrated every night because she was protesting bed and I didn't know what to do.  We use white noise every night, we diffuse lavender, we use lavender in the tub, we have quiet time, she goes to bed with a full belly, she has no night lights... then on top of that I started giving her Zarbee's melatonin to get her to sleep which I believe helped a bit, but overall it just took her time to adjust and she needed to feel better.  I was desperate, exhausted, and truly just could not wait for whatever this phase was to be over. 

Although it was a very rough month and I hated bed time for weeks, I think the big girl bed is right for her.  As I said, she sleeps great in the bed, plus its nice because now we can lay down and sleep with her if necessary.  We skipped the "toddler" bed overall and went straight for a full size mattress on the floor and I think its been a great option for her for now.  Eventually Joe will build her the bed frame and she'll be up off the floor but this does help if she for some reason gets up or rolls off, she doesn't have a big fall.  We do have a gate at her door that we leave closed and her door is open so if for some reason she gets up and wanders she can't get out of her room, however that has not been an issue.  Also, our bedroom is right across the hall from hers so I can hear her and I sleep very light so I've never not heard her.  Even in my Nyquil induced nights when I was sick (I caught her stupid respiratory infection and fought it myself then for a couple weeks after her) I was able to hear her and tend to her just fine without incident.  If we were father away we'd use the monitor and still keep her gate closed with the door open.

So if you've stuck with me for all of this, in closing I will say, if your kid is doing fine in their crib, leave them there as long as possible.  Don't introduce unnecessary or too many transitions at once--we want to get rid of the paci and start potty training too, but we won't be dumping both of those on her at once otherwise we will all literally probably kill each other.  If you do decide to transition to a full size mattress, it may be wise to leave the crib up for a couple weeks incase you're regretting it and need to go back to the crib.  I wanted to every single day but we stuck to our guns and decided to keep the bed in place.  The number one question I get asked is how did I know Georgia was ready... I knew because she had always bedshared and that was what she was used to, the crib was not as desirable to her and it never really was.  She tolerated it for a few months, but that was it, tolerated it but didn't love it.  I can tell by how well she does in the bed that it's what is best for her.  I think she could've probably skipped a crib all together in all honesty.   If you're starting this transition I'd love to hear from you to know how you knew your child was ready, did you have any specific indications?  
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