Monday, November 24, 2014

What's Next For Us


I know that posts have been scarce here as of late, but a cut back on social media has been in effect since my transfer on 11/11. I thought that I would at least give an update as to what our potential plan is going forward. After finding out that another seemingly perfect cycle failed, I decided that we needed, first of all, a break. I've been on fertility drugs for about a year now, even during those lulls I was on BCP so my body deserves a break. I really want to focus on getting to Curves 3+ times a week and trying to eat as healthy as possible during the holiday season. I plan to take a break from all infertility treatment at least until the end of this year which is about 5 more weeks, and maybe even longer if we feel like it’s necessary.

After I told Joe about our negative test result, he immediately suggested a weekend getaway. Even a midst building a house, we need this time together. Living at my parents, going through infertility treatment, building a house, and Joe working long hours six days a week has not done anything for our marriage. We are not in a bad place; we are just in a slump of exhaustion and frustration. We are ready to be in our own home but since that’s not quite possible yet, a weekend getaway will definitely suffice. This will be our Christmas present to each other, and it will be worth every penny that we spend. We leave Friday December 12th and are heading to Wisconsin Dells to stay at the Chula Vista resort for the whole weekend! I cannot wait!

This past weekend we went to see Eric Church, Dwight Yocum, and Halestorm on Friday.  It was so fun, it was the 5th time that we've seen Eric Church and he never disappoints.  I definitely overindulged in alcohol, but it was nice to let loose.  Saturday Joe and I went to our favorite place, Bartley's.  It was a fun weekend and I already feel like we are in a better place together.   

As far as our next steps to making a baby, maybe a month or two of the good old fashioned way of getting pregnant, but I definitely want a second opinion. I've decided I'd to see Dr. Ricardo Loret De Mola. He practices at SIU School of Medicine in Springfield Illinois. Although this will be a 2 hour trip for us one way, he is the #1 rated RE in the state, he has the best success rates and has great reviews. I was given his information by a friend of mine who recently got pregnant via IVF (1st cycle!) and is treated by him, she highly recommends him so I think he’s going to be the one we seek treatment from. I really hate the thought of leaving the doctor that I’m currently seeing, but I feel like a fresh perspective might be what we need for success.  I still need to check to see if he is covered by my insurance so fingers crossed!

What I thought would be the easiest failure to accept has inevitably become the hardest. I thought, I've handled 2 failed IVF cycles and 2 (ultimately) failed IUIs, what’s another? But all this failure has done was raise more questions as to why, why isn't this working for us? As far as we've been tested, we have nothing medically wrong with either of us. Although I have not been tested for a Vitamin D deficiency or any immunity issues, all of the normal infertility tests that are done have shown nothing. It makes things even more frustrating. And worst of all, it makes me question whether or not this will ever happen for us and thinking of the possibility that it won’t is probably the scariest thought I've ever had. I’m hoping that someone or something can help prove me wrong.

18 comments:

  1. Oh girl. I hate that this past cycle didn't work out, but I'm so glad you are taking a break from all the meds and going on a getaway. I hope it's a super sweet time for the both of you. I hope you are covered by insurance with this new doc - what a blessing that would be!!!

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  2. Yay for a weekend getaway!!! I hope you enjoy that special time. And I hope you are able to truly take a break and enjoy the holidays. Not sure if you follow apluslife blog at all, but Courtney recently got pregnant after years of infertility and failed IVF, and she did it through her diet and working with a natural path. Might be worth talking to her about while you are taking a break from treatments. Still thinking of you!

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  3. I'm so sorry you are going through this again. I can't imagine the strength it takes to go through it. I think taking a little break and going on a little getaway is a great idea and I hope you guys have a great time on your trip here soon! That's great that you have another doctor lined up to check out too.

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  4. I wish I could take away the pain of a failed cycle for you, but I admire you for your strength as you go through this difficult time. I hope you are able to enjoy your getaway together because you deserve it.

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  5. You've been heavy on my heart friend. So glad you guys are planning a little getaway, I can only imagine the stress that you all have been under lately for so many reasons. It will be wonderful! I'm excited for you guys planning to see a new dr!

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  6. I am so sorry you are going through this again and I hope the new doctor is covered by insurance and it all works out. Enjoy your weekend getaway, you deserve it!

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  7. Thinking of you sweet girl. Hoping that a relaxing weekend getaway and a break from medication and the stress of TTC will be just what you need.

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  8. Sending good thoughts your way!! The new doctor sounds like a good plan and I hope he is able to give you some new information.

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  9. I'm so sorry that this cycle failed but hang in there. Enjoy your get away and the holidays. Take time to relax and enjoy your hubby. 2015 will be your year!!

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  10. Yay for a lovely weekend getaway!! I hate that you and Joe are dealing with this again this month. Do happy youre seeking a fresh set of eyes wuth such a high success rate. Hoping your insurance will cover it all! Hugs girlfriend!!

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  11. So glad you guys are getting away together and focusing on each other! I will pray that this doctor is covered by your insurance! xoxo

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  12. You are in my thoughts, it never gets any easier. But a break will be good, and a getaway, even better! Your body will feel so much better being off meds for awhile, and it will allow you to focus and enjoy the holidays. You have so much great stuff around the corner with the house coming together, keep truckin!

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  13. So sorry to hear about your recent results. Maybe a little break and trying things the old fashioned way will be exactly what you need. I bet it will happen once you guys move into your beautiful new house. praying for you girlie. Have you thought of trying acupuncture?

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  14. So not want I wanted to read about you guys going forward BUT I think the break will be good on you and your body and I still feel like this is definitely going to happen- just when you least expect it. Excited that you guys are planning a getaway! I'd love to do something similar! Can't wait to see the pictures! Hope ya'll enjoy Thanksgiving and have a great rest of the week! xoxo

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  15. You would think that with each failed cycle it would get easier and easier, but honestly I feel like it just gets harder. I am so sorry! A new year with a new doctor and a fresh start just might be a good thing! Cheering you on sister! xoxo

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  16. It definitely never gets easier. I think with each failed attempt I always felt further away from my dreams. But then I regroup and forge ahead knowing that somehow I'm going to get my miracle. I have no doubt that a baby is in your future. Hang in there. It's going to happen. I just wish you didn't have to go through all this pain to get there. Big, giant hugs coming your way.

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  17. I really look forward to this new fresh start for you guys! You both definitely deserve a getaway too! I pray your insurance covers your new doctor and that this miracle will finally happen! I am so sorry to hear what you are going through! Keep your chin up! Have a nice Thanksgiving!

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  18. Life has been so crazy and I was thinking about you when I sat down to finally crack back open my computer and I first came here to get an update. I'm so sorry to hear the news! I think some time away is definitely a great idea and a second opinion too. Sending you and your hubby lots of love and you are definitely in my prayers girl!

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