Monday, May 11, 2015

Mother's Day & IVFx4


Happy Monday afternoon everyone!  I’m a little later with this post than I wanted to be, but it was such a busy weekend with my grandpas funeral services and several family members home, it was a constant go go go couple of days and I’m exhausted and still recovering!

I hope everyone enjoyed Mother’s Day weekend with their favorite moms.  I had 3 separate gatherings to attend and it was my grandma’s birthday so it was a busy day.  I know Mother’s Day can be a challenge for those who are TTC.  I see many people curse the day and I admit, it’s something I wish I was celebrating for myself, as a mom, but I’m not yet.  What I think about Mother’s Day is nothing negative.  It’s a day for my mom and all my mom friends, and my MIL, and my step-mom and my grandma and my aunts, and all the wonderful women in my life who are moms.  Just because I haven’t been able to enjoy it yet for myself, doesn’t mean that I won’t celebrate it for those who have been lucky enough to become moms.  I can’t be bitter about Mother’s Day because that wouldn’t be fair to all these wonderful moms that I know.  And I remind myself that one day, I will get to be on the receiving end.







That being said, today is 2 months until the official kick off of IVFx4.  In 60 days I will have my baseline ultrasound and labs and will finally be able to start stims.  I am anxious and excited to see how this cycle will differ from previous cycles.  I already know that my medications will be different from what I’ve done in the past.  This time I will be adding Menopur which I’ve never used, I will be monitored more closely, and we are shooting for about half the follicles that I had last time (34).  This week is a pretty big week.  I take my last BCP and once AF shows, I finally start the Aygestin protocol for the negative Beta 3 Integrin protein.  Aygestin is a form of progestin that will help my hormones align.  It is normally used for people who have had missing periods.  My guess is I will be starting that a week from today.


If you guys recall I said I had set 6 mini-milestones for myself to help the time pass, I’ve already successfully made it through 3 of those 6!  It is amazing how quickly the time is passing!   I’m really looking forward to being able to enjoy some nice weather, moving into our home, my 29th birthday,  a couple weddings, a bike trip, some camping, and whatever else comes over these next couple months.  I know that I will be totally preoccupied once we are finally able to move into the house.  Right now we are being held up pretty badly by all the rain.  The last two things we need to do (the septic & replacement windows) require several days of dry weather.  Although our septic is next on their schedule, our wet, muddy yard will bring things to a complete stop until its dry enough.  Right now our goal is to be in at the end of this month.

When I think about our TTC journey and how naïve I was back in June of 2011 when I took myself off of birth control and that first month of being married, thinking on my honeymoon with a late period that I might already be pregnant, and now, almost 4 years later heading into a 4thround of IVF, I just have to remind myself that life is an adventure, it’s a challenge, it doesn’t always come easy, and it won’t always go according to plan.  Although we haven’t become parents yet, I know that one day soon we will and that everything will fall into place.  We are so blessed already, adding a baby to the mix would be the sweetest buttercream frosting on the tastiest cake called known as life.  No matter how long it takes us to get there, or how we end up getting there, the bottom line is we will get there. 

20 comments:

  1. You seriously have the best attitude! I love how you are able to celebrate all the mothers around you, and look forward to the day you get to celebrate yourself! Such a beautiful person!

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  2. I love this! You are such an inspiration and I can only imagine what it would be like to know you in person!

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  3. I love your attitude and pray that next year you'll be celebrating Mother's Day as a mother yourself!

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  4. Love the quote at the beginning of your post! It is so true! And I have to agree with everyone else, that your attitude is inspiring. Menopur was 1 of the meds I took for my IVF. I hope it makes all the difference for you!

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  5. I'm loving your way of thinking your attitude and all. As always you are in my prayers. I know that this is it. NEVER LOSE HOPE!!! xoxo

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  6. You've totally got this! Your little blessing will make a way soon :)

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  7. I love your attitude and disposition! The quote at the beginning is so true, even though it is hard to see it at times. Blessings to you!

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  8. i completely agree - regardless of how long or which method it takes for y'all to get to parenthood, it WILL happen. god doesn't put desires in your heart to taunt you - he puts them there with purpose! i'm staying faithful that he will make you a mommy soon!

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  9. I'm glad u were able to enjoy Mother's Day with ur family. All though at times it can be difficult to truly embrace this holiday throughout this journey I always felt like that day was truly meant for my mother. Who I am truly grateful for having in my love as well as the rest of the wonderful moms in my family.
    Three out of six milestones is awesome, three more to go! Ur baseline will be here before u know it. There's no doubt in my heart u will be a wonderful mother and everyone around will be overjoyed that u finally reached the ultimate goal in our hearts, to be a mother.

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  10. Your faith and attitude is so inspiring! I love your commitment to prevail and not be bitter in the process… it can so hard sometimes. Good luck starting your meds.

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  11. You are so awesome with your attitude. I love it. Hoping so very badly that you WILL be celebrating mother's day next year!!

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  12. Love your attitude girl! Life is definitely an adventure and if it always went the way you wanted it to, there'd be no great surprises! Hope your yard dries up so you can get the rest of your plans accomplished!

    <3, Pamela
    Sequins & Sea Breezes

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  13. You have a great attitude and look beautiful!! Excited for you all and this next chapter!!

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  14. I think the 6 mini-milestones were a great idea and congrats on making your way through 3 of them already!!! Hope your week is off to a great start! xo, Biana -BlovedBoston

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  15. You have the most beautiful outlook on life girl. Time is really flying and checking off all those milestones!

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  16. Elena, your attitude about everything is amazing. I really honestly mean it when I say I hope it happens for you asap. I hope you get to celebrate your own mothers day soon. It will be well worth the wait!
    I hope the weather cooperates so you guys can get those things done! that sucks :(

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  17. I love your positive attitude and am so excited for you and your upcoming cycle! I am hoping that the medication adjustments this time around will be the amazing change that you needed :)

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  18. Your attitude is so inspiring! Here I am at 1 yr TTC, completely freaking out and my journey is just starting. Good luck to you I'm sure it'll all work out

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  19. Great attitude girl! Keeping my fingers, toes and everything else crossed for you.

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